View from the top of the hill. |
Fancy meetin' you here Buddha. |
I wondered why they would just leave a Buddha statue in the middle of nowhere. Was he welcoming passing cars into town? Was the decrepit stair case beside him that led to nowhere some metaphor? I didn't know all I knew was that as we continued down the road more and more decrepit, weather worn statues popped out between the bamboo. They'd hang over the road with their twisted and missing limbs, plaster flaking off to reveal wire skeletons and inner workings. A small bridge led to off to the side and we decided to follow it. It opened into one of the most interesting shrines I've ever seen. Hundreds of carved faces greeted us, all starring up at the beaming golden mandala in the shrine's center.
I had never seen anything like it and no signs in Japanese or English were around to describe it. Just a small and aged shrine in the middle of a long dusty road. It gave the whole area an eerie aura like i'd just wandered into someones own back yard. Or if I touched something I wasn't supposed to the carved faces might turn angry.
Off to the corner was a large statue of the starving Buddha, incense burning at his crossed legs. and further down as I left the shrine and began to explore the area around it, decrepit statues peaked out between the overgrowth. It was beautiful, creepy, chilling, and wonderful all at the same time.
However Japan has a way of showing me my own limitations, abilities and in this case, heart crippling and irrational phobias. ^.^" As we left the shrine and continued our hike we found an "under pass" or at least that's what it said in Japanese. And also what the hostel owner had told us.
Just an under pass
An under pass from Hell.
We entered the "under pass" and were greeting by pitch darkness. No light flickered in the cave walls (lets stop pretending it's just an under pass now!) only the glowing sun from the entrance revealed a line of tiny red capped Buddhas snaked down the middle of the passage.
The infamous entrance to the "underpass" |
As we journeyed further into the tunnel the walls grew thinner until they opened up into a large inner chamber.
What I expected to see in this chamber was another chubby smiling Buddha. What stared back and my friends and I however were four snarling statues of anthropomorphic demons.
Their back drop?
Murals depicting the Buddhist rendition of Hell.
And let me tell you from the looks of it, Buddhist Hell is no picnic.
No smiles to be found.
It was probably a few minutes after that that my claustrophobic, superstitious and sometimes highly irrational mind had had all it could take. I couldn't stand to be in the cave any longer, whether it was the weight of the statues' twisted and gnarled stares or the ground above my head something struck a down right primal cord within me. And as we walked to the end of the cave (okay I ran) it was like we'd resurfaced, returned from some backwards and foreign place no human was supposed to set foot in.
It was a side of Buddhism that shocked me, as it most likely was intended to. And as I tried to steady my shaking hands and wipe tears off my face I thought for a moment how something that I assumed was so peace-minded could enact from me such an intense reaction.
I regained my composure, with the help of my friends (who I had thoroughly embarrassed myself in front of) and took in my new surroundings. We had surfaced in the middle of an old temple. And in the spring sunshine I could hear the whine of cicadas mixing with the low hum of a Buddhist monk's chants and smell the comforting aroma of burning incense and age.
We explored and found an entire wall of origami cranes in various sizes and colors pouring down like cascading rainbows. A room in which lanterns, bird houses, and dials grew from the ceiling intermixing with talismans and colored curtains lining the entrance in sun-bleached shades of purple, red, yellow and green.
And in the middle of the Temple grounds was an old man with a bicycle who as I came down the steps smiled at me like he had known me my entire life, if not before.
And then he spoke to me in quick and mumbled Japanese,
"Good Afternoon. Where are you from?"
He asked us where we were headed and when he learned of our plans (to have Hanami in the near by park) escorted us all the way there all the while pushing his bicycle along besides us making polite conversation.
Once we arrived in the park we said our good bye's and thank you's and I watch him and his bicycle fade away around the corner.
Call me a romantic or say I have a slight inclination towards sappiness but in that small series of events something happened. I was reminded in the wonderful dichotomy of the world. Everything is double sided and there cannot be "good" without the "frightening." My trip through the cave showed that we cannot be reborn without facing the consequences, challenges and wounds of our pasts. It was my entire internal, emotional and physical struggle with my adventure in Japan personified. And as I sat with my friends drinking cheap beer underneath the sakura trees I felt a sudden and well deserved swell of pride and gratitude. Like I said before Japan has a way of showing me my limitations I never knew I had.
And consistently showing me ways to over come them.